I saw my LLMD (Lyme doctor) today. Because of my latest host of symptoms, I’ve been diagnosed with chronic neuropsychiatric Lyme and well as chronic neuropsychiatric mycoplasma. What this means is that the bacteria have gotten into my brain and are causing inflammation, which results in psychiatric and neurological symptoms. I’m starting on long term antibiotic therapy along with the Lyme meds I already take. She told me that this should really help my psychiatric symptoms and should help me to make more progress in therapy. Which is good.
Even so, I’m a mix of emotions right now. It isn’t an easy diagnosis to deal with. In addition, there is the piece that the last time I remember being bitten by a tick was when I was a kid, and that despite all of my health issues, my parents never took me to a Lyme specialist or really tried to get me the help that I need. So this is a case of pretty severe neglect that is still affecting me today. It’s frustrating. But I am doing my best to deal with it.
I also told my LLMD that I am a human trafficking survivor so that she knows my background and knows that I have PTSD and DID. She took it pretty well and believed me. I’m beginning to learn that most people believe me when I tell them that I’m a human trafficking survivor. It’s just a select few who don’t believe me. Which is really validating to me and is healing.
So overall I’m doing okay despite everything that is going on. I’m getting the rest that I need and am understanding that there are people who are there for me. It feels good. I feel like, I can do this thing called life, even though it’s difficult.
I don’t know what my future holds because of how severe my Lyme Disease and Co-Infections are. That is sad. But I’m going to do my best to make use of whatever time I have left on this earth, no matter how much time that is. I really am going to try to live the best life that I can.
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