I had this nightmare last night that David and I had broken up and that I was back in AA. One of my ex’s from there was trying to get back together with me, and in the dream I was totally grossed out by him. I lived in an apartment on a lake with Maggie and was broke. It was a weird dream and I was really put off by it. I woke up about an hour early this morning and couldn’t get back to sleep.
Yesterday was actually a really busy day for me, and the stress of it could have been part of the reason I had nightmares. On top of receiving that weird message through Facebook pm, there was some really inappropriate stuff happening in one of the groups that I mod. So I had to take care of that. I also got my eyebrows waxed yesterday, went out to lunch with my mom, went grocery shopping, got a massage, picked up stuff from the vet for our cat Tempest, and more. It was just a busy day, and things seemed to be going wrong here and there. For example, the waitress got my order wrong at the restaurant, and likely gave me something that was not gluten free (meaning that I’m allergic to). I wasn’t sure what it was, but I ate it anyways because I didn’t want to make a fuss, and then my stomach hurt for the rest of the day. Also, Maggie is in a mood right now because they are doing work on our street and she hates seeing people she doesn’t know on or near our property. So she’s kind of out of control. Hopefully I can take her to a dog park later to get some energy out.
I’m just trying to stay grounded despite all of this as best as I can, but I can feel myself dissociating. I was switching between parts quite a lot last night, so I can tell that I’m stressed. Hopefully today will be better than yesterday though.
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