I’ve been trying to learn some of the harder yoga poses like wheel, crow, frog, and even handstand. Most of these take shoulder strength, so my yoga instructor gave me exercises to increase shoulder mobility and strength. I can do the wheel pose but I tend to pull forward in it rather than back, so I’m working on that. Yesterday we worked on frog and crow. I can do frog, but crow is harder for me. So, I’ll be doing some exercises this week to help me get there.
It’s kind of amazing to me that I’m trying all these poses that I never thought I’d be able to do again (I did these kinds of poses in gymnastics as a child). I don’t really know how I got to the point of doing them, I just decided to try.
My yoga instructor says that I have a really strong practice and am really mindful of my body. Which is good. I’m glad that I have the thinking capacity these days to really think through the poses and be mindful. For years I wasn’t as open minded as I am today.
The other thing that’s going on in my life is that a Facebook group was made in one of my hiking groups for people in recovery who hike. So, I decided to join it, because I am technically still in recovery and would like to find people to hike with. But guess what? The people in it are treating it like it’s an AA meeting, and are introducing themselves as such. I don’t think that it’s the group for me, as I am anti-12 step. I might stay in there for awhile just to educate these people that there are different methods of recovery, but at the same time, I don’t know how much of this I can handle. I get triggered by 12 step phrases and behavior because of my abuse history, so I probably won’t stay in that group for long or participate much. I mean, it would suck to be walking up a mountain with a group of people and have my PTSD be constantly triggered by 12 step phrases and behaviors. So yeah, it’s probably not the group for me but I’ll give it a few days. It sucks though how 12 steppers monopolize the recovery world like this.
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