I’m not really sure what to write about today. I’ve had a long week with a lot of appointments and also scheduling of appointments for me and Patrick. I got diagnosed with probable Lyme disease, and tried a challenge where I take a medication to see if I have a reaction (Lyme patients do), and boy did I! I had so much nerve and muscle pain last night that I wasn’t sure I would be able to sleep. Luckily, I did, and I even slept in until about 10. I’m actually feeling much better today but still not 100%.
Right now I’m going through my usual morning dilemma of trying to figure out what type and how much exercise I should do for the day. I woke up wanting to do power yoga, but am pretty tired, so am not sure that I should do it. This happens every morning. Each day I fret about whether or not I’ll be able to exercise and achieve my exercise goals. It’s part of having chronic health issues. I have to take into account my symptoms and how I’m feeling. I can’t just stick to a generic exercise schedule very well. I do know, though, that today at least I will take Maggie on a 35 minute walk or hike. I’m just trying to decide right now if I should throw some sort of yoga on top of that.
I drive myself crazy trying to figure out my schedule while at the same time accounting for my physical illnesses. I wish that I didn’t have them, and that I could just stick to the routine I want, which is to do yoga every day along with some type of aerobic activity. But, sometimes doing that much exercise is too much for me. It gets frustrating. I wish that things were different, but they are not.
I really, for example, want to start jogging with Maggie when she is full grown. But, due to injuries in the past, and my health issues, jogging is probably not the best idea for me. I’m still going to likely talk to a doctor about this, but they’ll probably tell me to stick with lighter forms of exercise. We’ll see. This is still 7 months away (puppies can’t jog regularly until they are full grown and their growth plates are in). Really, though, I would love to jog mostly every day if I could.
That’s what sucks about having chronic health issues. I don’t get to do what I want to a lot of the time. I have to find ways to enjoy life despite this. It’s hard, but doable. I can say that today, despite everything that I’m going through, I do have enjoyment in life.
Well, I feel like I’m just rambling, so I’ll sign off. I hope that this blog post finds you well.