It’s So Hard To Lose A Pet

We lost our cat Lucy about a week ago to intermediate/large cell lymphoma. It was really hard because it was unexpected. We thought that we would have a few more months with him because he was going through chemo, but the complications of his cancer just got too bad. It was really hard to say goodbye, because I wasn’t prepared for it at all.

This isn’t the first cat that I’ve lost to cancer. We lost Marmalade to large cell lymphoma in June 2018. But, he’d been on chemo for about 5 months and was no longer responding, so we knew a few days ahead of time that he would have to be put down soon. With Lucy, we didn’t have that kind of time to prepare, process, and say goodbye. He just went downhill incredibly fast. It was really shocking to me, and painful.

I’m having problems with motivation this week. Although this is already a common problem for me (I usually just force myself to get things done), it’s worse this week. And, I’m crying all the time about everything. I just feel like I’m a mix of emotions right now. It’s very hard, and harder than I expected it to be.

Still, I’m getting through it. This weekend we are going to be looking a goldendoodles. We looked at bordoodles on Wednesday, and they were very cute, but I’m worried about their herding instict around the cats. Plus, I found a breeder who is going to recommend a dog for me that could be trained to be a service/emotional support dog, which is what I need.

I’m still nervous about taking care of a dog, though. What if I don’t feel well enough some days to take it for walks? I’ve been told that I can always play fetch with a dog so that it can get it’s exercise, but what if I’m laying on the couch with an EBV flare? I know that David can always help out, too, but I’m nervous. I haven’t had a dog since I was a kid.

We’ll see what happens. For right now, Patrick is on my lap being supportive, as I don’t feel 100% this morning.

Thanks for reading! Feel free to comment below.

9 thoughts on “It’s So Hard To Lose A Pet

  1. I’m sorry you are going through this my friend. I’ve been there with a couple of cats. It’s heartbreaking.


    1. Also, we have a goldendoodle at my work and he is an awesome little guy! But his human *did* tell me they sometimes need a bit of training.

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  2. I lost several cats & several dogs. My cat Jack is sick right now & I’m probably going to have to put him down soon. My heart goes out to you. Biggest hugs.


    1. Thanks! I’m so sorry about Jack. Hugs.


  3. I’m so sorry for your lose, hold tight to Patrick and remember those beautiful memories with your other kitty. It’ll get easier. I’m pretty much a dog person with a hint of cat. lol My sweet Mocha darling passed away in 2017 and it still feels like a fresh wound, she was with me through the toughest times in my life. Sometimes I don’t think I would’ve made it through without her. I think of her daily. I believe if a dog is meant to be in your life, you’ll know it. Only time will tell. Blessings to you. 🙂


    1. Thanks! I’m sorry for your loss as well.


  4. I am so sorry for your loss. I own a mutt, and honestly I think that adopting a dog from a shelter is the best option. But if you really want a support dog, a specially trained dog might be a better idea. Older dogs are also easier to care for, but the medical bills are really high. Once again, I am so sorry for your loss.


    1. Thanks! We ended up getting a goldendoodle puppy.


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