Well, my neck hurts, my back hurts (I’m having muscle pains), I’m extremely fatigued, and am getting chills and things like that. It looks like I’m in my yearly winter viral flare. Sometimes these start in January, after the Holidays, but the last couple of years they’ve been coming earlier.
It sucks to feel this fatigued. I don’t want to do anything. But, I am trying to do some things. I did 13 minutes of gentle yoga yesterday, which still seemed like a lot. Today I’m going to try to walk a mile on the treadmill. I also am looking through and trying to find publishers to publish my children’s book. Hopefully I can find one; if not I’ll self-publish it.
I’m really frustrated that I’m in another flare. I had hoped that with all the supplements and medicine that I’m taking that I could avoid it this year, but that didn’t happen. And as much as I want to go on the treadmill today, I’m questioning if I should go. That’s one of the most annoying things, actually, about having CAEBV and fatigue issues, is that I’m always questioning and considering what activities I should do because I’m afraid that they are going to wear me out. Even finding publishers for half an hour today really wore me out, meaning that my endurance is low right now.
A funny thing happened to me yesterday, though: someone asked if I’d had a baby. Apparently, my reborn really is that lifelike! I told her that Skya is a realborn reborn doll and that I got her because I can’t have kids. She thought that was cool. Still, the whole thing was a bit weird for me!
I am really enjoying being a reborn mom. I would like to have more, but I’m not sure about it. It seems like enough for me with my fatigue levels to just care for one. But, then I see all the cute ones being advertised all the time, and it’s hard to turn them down! There’s one boy model in particular, Darren, who I think is adorable. And then there’s the toddler reborns, which are quite cute too…. Decisions, decisions. I just know, though, that I have to put myself first with whatever I do.
I wasn’t going to write a blog post today because I’m so tired, but I’m glad that I did. It seems as though writing is something that helps me to feel better overall.
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