One of my current fears is that my parents (or whoever’s) influence over the doctors here that I do not have early childhood trauma is that it is going to stop me from getting disability and health insurance after my next review, which could be coming up by this fall or winter. This is because part of the basis of my disability lies in the fact that I have a dissociative disorder as a result of childhood sexual abuse and that this disables me as an adult. I was awarded social security all the way back to 2016, and it was backdated to 2015, which is when counselors and doctors first started to understand the extent of the childhood abuse that I’ve gone through.
I had another conversation, though, with the new doctor where she seemed to dismissed the DID diagnosis and act like I don’t have a dissociative disorder. I’m worried that if they are charting this, that I may lose disability and my health care as well. This is because I started applying for disability in 2010 with all of my other health issues such as chronic fatigue, bipolar disorder, etc., and didn’t get it. It wasn’t until the DDNOS (my first dissociative disorder diagnosis) that the judge was able to put together what was going on with me and grant me disability (2016).
So right now my stomach is churning about my upcoming disability review, and even about posting this blog. I’ll see if I even post it. Thanks for reading!