Every time I go to the hospital for mental health, zealous hospital doctors tell me that bipolar disorder is my main problem. Then I slip back into denial some, and I go home and a private therapist has to help me to work my way back out of the denial that these doctors pushed me into by overemphasizing the role that bipolar disorder plays in my life versus PTSD and basically by treating me like I’m completely delusional when it comes to everything, especially my trauma, which can take months. I am still traumatized, for example, from doctors doing this at my last two hospital visits. It’s no wonder I keep slipping in and out of denial and am in and out of psychiatric units every six months. And then of course the staff always blame the situation on me and my private doctors rather than the fact that they can’t admit their bias against patients with certain diagnoses and the fact that they can’t admit that they might not be right all of the time. Sounds kind of like my narcissistic pharmacist Dad who is convinced that bipolar disorder is my problem as well despite all evidence to the contrary, including the fact that it is my PTSD and Dissociative Symptoms that led me to be awarded Social Security. But, even medical professionals and family members can’t see beyond their own biases and fears. Anyways. I’m actually quite pissed right now but don’t want to tell the staff or show it because I don’t want to get into trouble for voicing dissent or showing anger. Because that’s seen as a bad thing here.